Why am I up at six in the morning? Well, I'll tell you why. I cannot sleep, Joan Ryan being the culprit. Over the last few weeks her absolute disorganized insanity has gotten to me and her constant "I don't know if I connect to this song" has gotten to me, and what it's done is just make me settle on things i shouldn't settle on and go in directions I don't want to go. When she asked me to do this new show, there was a clear purpose - her old crap wasn't working anymore and she wanted to get booked in mainstream venues like Kevin and Linda Purl and others do. When Linda asked me to do her show, it was the same thing - I had to reinvent her totally. But with Joan, she just wants to do more songs like the ones she's done and the point is for mainstream venues you CAN'T do those drippy new songs that people don't know, you know, the ones she "connects" with. I'm sort of at the end and today is the day I'm going to really come down strong. Part of it is because I asked her to send me our list of definites, to which we added two songs on Wednesday. I made sure she wrote them down on the master list. She didn't send me the list, and then yesterday she sent me an e-mail asking didn't I have the list, since we haven't added anything to it. That was the last straw and I fear she's misplaced the paper she wrote the two new songs down on and I only remember one because we've been through so much damn material.
So, I woke up, and began thinking of more show standards and just plain standards, and I'm coming in with a list, we're going to play through them and by the end of today's session we will be finished or I will be finished. I'm not making enough money to go through this.
