Because of the wording of a post Ron made elsewhere, I leapt to an incorrect conclusion. I have been called paranoid and self-destructive enough to last me a lifetime, frankly, and occasionally by people I care about on this board. I think people occasionally forget why other dear readers have left - the real reasons, some of them completely wacky to me, MattH being the wackiest, because he took umbrage that I had the temerity to not like where the TV series Lost went and had the temerity to not understand how others couldn't see how inane it was getting. That was it. And that's fine, but I would hope that people understand why I occasionally go to certain lands - I have been led to those lands time and again and so sometimes I make incorrect leaps. I apologized on this board to Ron, I apologized on the other board to Ron - more than that I cannot do. Funnily, no one ever apologizes in return for the name-calling that I've had to endure - even making the incorrect leap, I did no name calling nor was I even mean about it. I would hope he'll come back - I don't know how a person makes a leap that I don't find them a valuable member of this board - I BROUGHT him to this board and I have been nothing but nice to him on this board, so I hope that in time all this blows over and even if it doesn't, as I said earlier, I am not the only person on this board - this board is a community. I have been battered and bruised by certain types all over the Internet - a lot of that boils down to the cretin who pursues me all over the Internet, and anyone who thinks THAT'S paranoia knows nothing of what's been happening since 2007. It would drive anyone to paranoia or distraction. But you know what - if I'm so paranoid and destructive maybe we should just call this board quits. Because really I think my history here with most dear readers has not only been positive, but supportive and friendly, as well.
I don't know, am I blamed for Tomovoz's leaving? I never did anything to him other than be nice. He went off on me and said really nasty things behind my back to a jerk he shouldn't have even been talking to and even with THAT I tried to get him to stay. Am I blamed for Jose's endless disappearances here - they have nothing to do with me, that I can tell you - I'm the one who's given him employment, treated him to many, many meals - I don't get it, I never will. But it is beginning to weigh heavy on me and I'm not liking this feeling AT ALL. And I'm sure our little insane stalker is reading this as I post it and clapping her hand in delight at what she's wrought over these many years. And to her I say - karma will take care of you, crazy lady.
One of the first jokes I ever learned was: I'm so paranoid that when I go to a football game and the players get in a huddle I think they're talking about me.
