Good Evening!
I'm back from my second walk of the day... I needed it. Not only to help the dinner I had earlier to settle in my stomach, but also to walk off some "bad" news I got earlier this evening. I'm actually still in shock about it - more shock actually than disappointment right now. -And, I guess, even a little bit of anger. It's just one of those situations where I never thought anything could go wrong. Heck, I approached them about the project. And since I've been working with this organization for years at this point... And I even devoted a couple of weeks to them recently on my own time and own dime. For all I knew, everything was still on track. But, as it turned out, someone else somehow entered the picture. And, worst of all, it appears that the decision was made a few weeks ago, and I was just informed tonight. By e-mail. And I've been attempting to follow up on things for the past couple of months(!), but did not receive any word back until tonight. So... What can you do? Well, I'm gonna attempt to get some answers to the plethora of questions I have currently racing through my head - that's what I'm gonna do tomorrow.
The news really did throw me for a loop. On a professional, I can take it. But there is actually some personal history involved here, and that's what makes it hurt. Makes it shocking.
What I'm hoping is that I misread the e-mail, but since the e-mail was only two sentences long(!), I doubt it. But I can dream, can't I?
On the bright side of things, I can at least take myself out of that "holding pattern". But since I was also kept in a "waiting mode" yesterday, this was not what I needed tonight.
Ah, well...
OK - End of rant... Hopefully, I won't have to rant again tomorrow.
The walk helped, and I even bought some Lotto tickets on the way back. Alas, I didn't win tonight - they just showed the drawing on TV. Oh, and I bought an old-fashioned popsicle, cherry-flavored. So much pleasure in simple things.
I caught the beginning and the end of the AFI's "100 Years, 100 Songs" special. Interesting choices all around. No real surprises, imho, although, undoubtedly some favorites have been left out, and there were probably some questionable choices and rankings in the minds of some people. But the list was already whittled down from 400 choices - and it's good to know that the original "ballot" would have been much, much longer.
-I just have to ask... What the heck happened to John Travolta?!?!? He was hard to watch, and hard to listen to after a while.