I had a follow-up visit with my oncologist yesterday. Everything seemed okay save for the blood work results which were pending. Well, I was able to see them online this morning along with a note from the doctor. She told me that she is concerned that my white blood cells have not yet reached the low end of normal range. Because of that, I had to move my next appointment from late May to late April and to have more blood work in 2 weeks. If my white blood cells are still low in that CBC, I will likely undergo a bone marrow biopsy (I've lost count how many I've had all this past year and they don't get any easier with experience). My oncologist knows that the chemotherapy was intense and really knocked the heck out of my bone marrow. I'm just worried if the marrow doesn't improve and/or there is a relapse of the lymphoma, I would then need to have a marrow transplant. That scares me very much because that is the ultimate that can be done. My thoughts race ahead of me and I know I have the tendency to think doom and gloom. Sometimes it is difficult to put on a happy face, to borrow a phrase.